Gazing Upward
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  • August5th

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    Dear Maryn,

    In this second month of your life, you’ve really transformed from a newborn to a baby.  As a result of your love for nursing, you weighed 11 lb 3 oz at your 6 week check up! That put you in the 75-90th%, and your length of 22.75″ keeps you in the 90%.

    You’ve gradually extended your awake time and become very alert.

    You flash your gummy smile quite a bit and just began cooing last weekend.  When your big sisters and brother are around, you can’t keep your eyes off them. And your daddy and I think you recognize us because your face seems to light up when you see us. You also settle down when you’re in my arms which makes me feel pretty special.

    When you’re awake, you enjoy the swing, baths, listening to music, and holding your head up to look around. It’s amazing how quickly you’ve gained head control.  You don’t like the bouncy seat, and your opinion of the carseat changes from day to day. But once we’re moving in the car, you usually fall asleep.

    While I don’t think you have reflux like your brother did, you’ve definitely benefitted from sleeping in the Nap Nanny.  It was a pricey purchase but worth every penny!

    When you look back on these pictures, you’ll see how much you’ve changed in appearance.  The hair on top of your head came in (after it had mostly fallen out), your cheeks have plumped up, and your once bird-like legs now have adorable rolls! GrandMary almost didn’t recognize you last weekend.

    5 weeks

    8 weeks…what a difference three weeks makes! And the picture below doesn’t even do her rolls justice.

    Your disposition is sweet and happy. Your only fussy time is at night when you want to nurse or be held continuously for a few hours. This has worked out pretty well since the Olympics are on TV every night and you give me an excuse to sit with you and enjoy the festivities.

    The hardest part of the month was when I had to leave you strapped to a bed for an EEG. You have many leg spasms, and your pediatrician wanted to make sure the spasms are due to an immature nervous system and not a form of seizures. So she scheduled an EEG for you. We were originally told it would be a 30 minute test with you sitting in my lap. However, when we got there (actually an hour after we had checked in), as the EEG tech was walking us back to the exam room, she told us it would be a 2 hour test and that I wouldn’t be able to hold you. In fact, I’d have to wait out in the waiting room. I felt very flustered because I knew you needed to be fed in an hour. And the sight of you crying while strapped to the table broke my heart because I couldn’t pick you up.  With it being 90+ degrees outside, I’d dressed you in a sleeveless outfit, but the exam room was freezing cold.

    Your momma was a real mess when I had to leave you, often hearing your cries through the double doors.  Thankfully, the EEG results were good. No seizures. But nothing traumatizes a mother like seeing their child scared, hurt, or crying and feeling so helpless to comfort them.

    Carter has already coined some nicknames for you: Renny and Ren-Ren.  He also calls you “baby cutie.”  Grace enjoys tickling your feet and making sure you’re snuggled up with a blanket. And Caroline helps me entertain you during dinner time as I prepare the meal.

    Daddy and I are simply smitten with you.  You’re a joy in our family, and we look forward to seeing what changes the next month brings.

    Happy two months baby girl!

    Love, Mommy


  • June12th


    Today, Maryn is one week old. And I’ve been sentimental all day.  Part of me wishes we could go back and do last Tuesday all over again.  With her being our last baby, and having waited so long for this incredible gift, I have a feeling I’m going to have difficulty with time passing. I want to freeze this stage for awhile because the newborn phase passes so very quickly!

    I appreciate all of your sweet comments, especially about our baby girl’s name.  We’ve had a lot of people ask how we’re pronouncing the name, so I thought I’d answer that here and give some background on how we arrived at her name.

    I went to high school with a girl named Maryn and always thought it was a beautiful name.  And it also somewhat resembles my mom’s name, Mary Lynn, and I loved the idea of honoring my mom in that way.  We also chose Elizabeth for the same reason…to honor Scott’s mom (who goes by Libby).

    While the most common pronunciation of Maryn is MARE-in (rhymes with Karen), the Maryn I went to school with pronounced her name with the accent on the end…Ma-RYN (rhymes with Corinne).  We actually love both and joke that we may just see which pronunciation sticks. But we’re mostly calling her Ma-RYN since it sounds most like my mom’s name.

    As you can see from the picture, our Maryn pillow came in and I just love how it adds pops of color to the nursery. Some of you had been concerned that the seller on Etsy posted a picture of a Maryn pillow and thought she might have ruined the surprise for us. So let me clarify that she had made that pillow for another friend.  When I first found her Etsy store, I about fell off my bed when I saw the pillow with our “girl name,” given it’s so uncommon, and especially with it spelled the same way. When I contacted the seller to place my order, she said that her friend had combined her grandmother’s names to come up with Maryn.  I remember thinking that maybe it was a sign I was having a girl by seeing that pillow! 🙂  Anyway, rest assured that no surprise was ruined.

    I am working on writing out Maryn’s birth story and hope to post soon.  I don’t want to forget a single detail! (But don’t worry, I’ll spare you some of them.) 🙂  Thank you so much for celebrating the blessing of our daughter with us!

  • June7th


    The birth story and more pics to come in the next few days, but here are two pictures in the meantime. She is just a doll! We are so thankful for a smooth delivery and a healthy baby!

  • June5th


    Maryn Elizabeth made her grand entrance at 12:55 pm today. She weighed 7 lb 4 oz and measured 21″ long. More details and pics to come…probably tomorrow. She looks a lot like Carter. All three kids are very excited! Thank you so much for all of your kind words and prayers! I made it through natural delivery….yay!

  • May30th


    For the sake of record keeping (says my mom), here’s my belly at 37 weeks.  I apparently have not taken or posted enough pictures this pregnancy.

    This pic makes me laugh because my tummy looks pointed.

    Next order of business….thank you, thank you, thank you to all of you who shared words of encouragement, your experiences, books to read, techniques to try, and Scripture to pray!! I have been overwhelmed by the number of you who have taken time to type out suggestions and your own testimonies of natural childbirth. Each and every message was so encouraging!

    I am happy to update that, after reading through a few books, hiring a doula, and praying through it all, I am actually really excited and totally on board with natural delivery.  I now feel prepared and educated, and much of that is thanks to all of you!

    My platelet count was still down last week, so no change in that. But even if the number miraculously comes up, I still plan to deliver this baby unmedicated.  So now we’re just waiting for baby Brown to decide it’s time to make his/her debut!

    While I’m anxious to no longer be preggo, I’m trying to savor the last days since this is our last baby (at least biologically).  While I don’t always feel great, I have to say that my husband makes me feel confident and beautiful.  I know not all women feel desirable when their belly gets so round, but Scott makes me feel as sexy as ever. Well, and let’s face it, my stomach probably hasn’t been this firm since my last pregnancy. 🙂

    And back to record keeping, I have done an incredibly poor job since Christmas, especially given that this blog annually becomes printed into our family scrapbook.  So I’m working on a month by month review that I’ll post this week, from January to May, which will feature highlights and pictures from the first half of 2012.

    Love to all!